Widower's House by John Bayley

Author:John Bayley
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: W. W. Norton & Company

That was the end of what I had written down just after Iris died, and apparently forgotten about in the days that followed. The two women and the time I had had with them had driven it out of my head.

I sat at the kitchen table and pondered the pages. I decided it must have cheered me up to write them. I decided it would do me good now to go on writing. I realised, in an indifferent way, how extremely self-centred I seemed to have become. With Iris gone, there was no other centre. Anything I wrote would just be about myself now. That could not be helped: At least I was not going to do anything to help it.

Margot and Mella had certainly been a distraction. To start writing again now would at least be a substitute for Mella’s departure. Should I write now about the time I had had with the pair of them, and the drama—for surely it was no less than that?—of their meeting?

I decided not to. Perhaps I had the feeling, even the wish, that the drama might not yet be over? Mella might return. Perhaps I half-hoped she would.

I might as well start again from the point—more or less—where I had left off—that morning quite soon after Iris died. Probably now that Mella had disappeared, and there was little news of Margot, nothing much more would happen. Part of me—most of me—hoped it would not. That must be, surely, the way I still wanted my new life to become. And to remain.

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